2011

I don't know about everyone else but this year has been one of the best.

Every year since I think Middle School-ish, I have made new year resolutions. One year I said that I'd "be different". And that's one that just so happen to become part of me. I am different and always will be. Conforming isn't for me, so I stopped trying. And it's been the BEST thing I have ever done for myself.

For 2011, I said I wouldn't ask for "More than this" (refer to Vanessa Carlton).  I'm sure I wrote an entry about this last year or beginning of this year, explaining that what I meant. And I haven't asked for more than what I have all year. Of course I hoped for more money, but I didn't ask for it. I hoped for a new apartment. I hoped I wouldn't have to give up everything and move to PA. I hoped I could finish Grad School. I hoped someone would see my potential and offer me a job. I didn't ask for anything and I got everything.

In this year coming up, I want to resolute something like being vulnerable. Why vulnerability? Because I think it will make me a more attractive person and creative person. Above all, it'll help me do what I aimed for. To have an effect on others by sharing myself. I do this now, but I have been guarding my heart a bit recently. And it's no one's fault but my own.

Can't wait!